Numero Uno

I don’t want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I’ll wait here forever just to, to see you smile
‘Cause it’s true, I am nothing without you

Here goes another blog. Three others before. Written. Abandoned. Blogging seems to be a habit through rough times. I suppose its because of the sudden flood of thoughts and feelings.

In most recent events, the break up. Yup, with the one who was supposed to be. Those who know me, might find me heartless, seeing how little i’m affected by it. Those who understand me, would know better. It has not been easy. It still isnt. I miss him. I miss his arms, his smile, his voice, his scent. I miss his piercing stare that always made me feel warm. I miss being comfortable and understood. I miss everything. But there’s nothing i can do. Not now, not anymore.

Once again. I am forced to move on. And i find no problems in moving on, except for the fact that so many things still remind me of him. Time goes by, some days faster than others, but nevertheless, slowly.

I’m not suprised, that he wants to move on. What i am suprised about, is how it makes me feel. He was my boyfriend after all. For almost as long as I want to remember. 400 days, gone.

Nobody said this was going to be easy, but they did promise it would be worth it. I’m just waiting for the moment, where i know i believe that.
I let go.
I let it all go.

Graphic Design and Business English Finals tomorrow and i’m awake at 2.
WHAT is WRONG with ME?!

One thought on “Numero Uno

  1. sgrmse. says:

    i am so SO GLAD your old stuff is here now!!!! :D :D :D i’m very jealous and wish i had kept my archives, too. i’m so proud of the kind of strength you display and you make me want to have (and live with) the same courage as you. to accept that maybe our pasts are there for a reason; to accept things that cannot change but work towards the things that we can.

    love you. good move! x

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