What would I say to Me?

If I were to go back in time, and meet me, one year ago. This is what I’d like myself to know.

That he will not turn out to be the man you expect him to be. You will come to find that he’s an asshole. He will break your heart, over and over again. But you are strong enough, and you will realise, that love, is not everything.

That clubbing, is not something you will grow out of. Not because of the drinking or smoking. Not even because of the dancing. But because of the friends that you realise you gain from it.

That you will get homesick. Very homesick. But you would still give up the chance to go back home, just to spend time with him. Which you should NOT do.

That you would be given the chance to stay with him, but you shouldnt. Because that one month is the beginning of the end. Plus you’ll get bitten by bedmites, badly.

That neither your birthday, christmas nor new year this year will be special unless you make your own plans and do what only you want to do, instead of trying to follow anyone else.

That you should work. Earn that money, and spend it on shopping sprees. You will need em.

That you should not start college just so you could be near him. But you will not end up regretting it, coz the friends you gain makes the sacrifice worth it. And you will begin to look forward to college.

That loosing weight will be painful, but not nearly as much as gaining it back. And to other people, you will always be too chubby or too thin. You will never be perfect unless you believe you are.

That you should treasure every moment with your mum, because even though your boyfriend seems more important at the moment, your mum is the one that will move out of the country. And you will only get to see her once, every 2 years. You also will cry over missing her, even if you think you’re too old to do that. Many times.

That you will grow out of many phases, but shoes is not something you will ever regret buying. In fact, you should buy more of those. A whole lot more.

That getting drunk is something that you will regret because you will blurt out things you never wanted people to know, not to mention puking your guts out. So do not start drinking to begin with.

That you should never.ever.EVER take your phone along when you go clubbing. Because you will loose not one, but two phones, in that exact same unfortunate way.

That you should dye your hair whatever colour you want to, but think twice thrice before cutting it. It is something that you will regret on many different occasions.

That his friends will always be his friends, and even after you manage to befriend them and hang out frequently with them to the point of having satay & leong sui rituals, at the end of the day, they will still always be his friends, not yours. Remember that. Coz that will hurt, a lot.


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