I dont know what it is anymore that is stressing me out, or pulling me down. But more often than not, I find myself feeling sad, disappointed or more accurately, miserable. Yup, as overly dramatic as that sounds, sometimes I really do feel miserable.
I used to enjoy everything I did, everyday that passed. I used to be happy and carefree. I used to look forward to chilling with friends, to a girls night out clubbing, to dancing my ass off late into the night without having to care about anything else in the world. I dont anymore.
I wish I could wake up in the morning, not having to worry about today, not having to think about tomorrow. But I cant do that anymore. I’m worried all the time. About college, about work, about friends, about life. I’ll be 20 in 4 months, I cant go on making mistakes. As much as I want to remain a child, I have to face the facts, I havent the luxury of that choice.
I want to snap out of this. I want to be alright. I WANT TO BE ME AGAIN.