ancient Post from an ancient Blog

Came across this as I was doing a post-mortem on one of my previous blogs. Just felt like posting it up. Seemed a little relevant to the realization that I’ve come into recently.

Ever had someone that’s meant the world to you ? someone you’d give up all you had, do anything you could do, just to see the happiness in his or her face, even if it was for a second ? That one person u’d practically give up ur life for without hesitation ?.. the very same person u’d love unconditionally, knowing in d back of ur mind, that all ur efforts would come off unpaid…

Then when it all goes bad, you realise that sacrificing everything for that person, has killed the very person you are… that you’ve forgotten those silly little things that once used to keep you contented before things got complicated…

And in that very instant, you start to blame yourself, for not being good enough, for not being able to do the right things, and for failing miserably, for no matter how hard you tried n tried, you could never get that one special person to love you, the way you loved him or her…

As the realisation overwhelms you, you’re flooded with memories of the past, and pressed down by the pain of what you have lost…you spend countless night staring at the ceiling or with ur face in the pillow, crying…

At that point, you realise, you cant take it anymore…that there is no use in simply blaming yourself, coz no matter how much harder you’d have tried, or how much more you’d have tolerated, some things just aren’t meant to be….then you come to understand, that that never ending search for happiness, is in fact, “never ending”…and then you start to let go…

Ever wondered, how much truth there was to d phrase “it’s better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all”…?? Who knows what the answer to that would be. Who could predict which path would be a better one?

I guess it’s all just part of life…we’re meant to make mistakes, to get hurt, to feel a little pain at the least, before we can really begin to enjoy the gifts we have in life…

It is a fact, that life, keeps handing us interesting and new obstacles…it is up to us, to take what good we can out of it, and continue on this journey without worrying too much… after all, no matter what we go through in life, the only promise that life has made us, is that someday, life itself will come to an end…

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