Monthly Archives: October 2008

my three stooges

These are my three stooges. They have been for a really long time. Heaven knows the crap we’ve gone through together. All the fights and fun with had with each other. Gosh, I wouldn’t give up those memories or girls for anything. Not even a million gazillion dollars!!

Seeing them always makes me happy. Giddy in the stomach, head up in the clouds kinda happy. They’re beyond anything I could wish for in best friends. Yes, despite all the fights XD I love them to bits and pieces! It’s a good thing we stay so far apart now, or else I’d spend all my time hanging out with them. But really, I wish I got to see them more often. Things would be so much easier then.

in that Pain

She sat, in the darkness. Thoughts going through her mind. And even though those thoughts had been bothering her so much, she could never find the right words to truly express it. Nor the ears that she knew would listen. But would it really matter anyways? Would talking about it make her feel any better? Would it take away the pain or guilt? Would it take away the shame?

She sobbed, in the darkness. Understanding that nothing in the past would ever change. She mourned the loss of her family and friends. Knowing that even though all of them were still there, in most ways, they weren’t. She mourned the loss of love. Something, someone she truly believed in. Always doubting if she’d ever be able to believe the way she did, ever again. She mourned the loss of the life once within her. Regretting the choice she made, knowing that in her long list of mistakes, it was the one that would hurt the longest. But most of all, she mourned the loss of herself. For somewhere in the numbness that she had reduced herself to, she had forgotten what it felt like to be who she used to be.

She cried, in the darkness. Wishing there was someone that understood her. Someone that shared the pain she felt. Pain she had gotten so used to, that it had begun to stop bothering her. And when the pain did start to hurt, she merely found ways to push it away. Her schedule kept her busy. Her companions provided her the excuse to not think of those feelings. Her partying and promiscuity furthered the numbness. Then as a last resort, she knew she could always turn to the idiot box, which would keep her mind blank as she dozed off that night.

And as she sat in that darkness, somewhere between the sobbing and crying, she reached for a blade, and held it up to her wrist. Hurting herself was always so simple before. It transferred the pain, distracted her mind. Just for that moment, she didn’t want to think of the abuse. She didn’t want to know she has been abandoned. She didn’t want to feel used. All that was left to do was pull, one stroke after another. Physical pain was always a better option compared to the alternate. But she was too weak to deal with the endless questioning she’d get after. Too sick of having to answer to people who never actually cared to notice the pain before the scars.

So in reality, she dropped the blade, dried up her tears, closed her eyes and prepared herself for the coming day. But in her mind where all those emotions came back to life, she held on to that blade tightly, and pulled it across her wrist as hard as she could. Stroke after stroke, her quivering hand refused to stop. And it didn’t. Not until all that was left was her numb body in that darkness, lying on the cold ground, bleeding itself to sleep.

Crash Boom Bang!

Ron got into another accident! Thank god once again it wasn’t his fault. Although the stupid lady driver of the other car kept insisting that it was. Hello! Like, we were going straight and she just turned as if it were her grandfather’s road without checking for oncoming traffic. So she turned, just as our car was reaching the junction and…


Tires screeching and all, our poor little car went directly into hers really hard. My first hard impact accident. I cut my lip, weggie’s right arm whacked the back of the driver’s seat and ridzhuan’s head hit the rear view mirror, so hard that it fell off. So everyone got out, road police showed up. Talk talk chat chat. I think a lot of it was unnecessary actually, coz it was clearly her fault, and what more was there to do but report it, right?

Malaysians are so kaypoh. No one was really hurt or dying yet there were random people there being nosy and all. Tsk tsk. So after a while, tow trucks came to get the cars and we went to the police station then waited to make the report. All in all it wasn’t really a fun experience, but at least Ron’s car get a new hood and bumper after this. I try to look for the positives in things (:

Oh and we sat in the back seat of the car as it was towed and I’m proud to report that we managed to take a few pictures through the whole ordeal. I know, we’re total camwhores when we’re together. Will put the pictures up so everyone can see how bad it was. But that will take some time, seeing as how I can’t go back to mum’s place now (where my camera cable, laptop, battery charger etc happen to be). No car means to transport to go anywhere at all.

That’s why I’ve been sitting at home, mostly watching One Tree Hill episodes. I’m downloading faster than they’re coming up with episodes. Which is very annoying cause I’m done with half of season 6 and I’m still stuck here. I wanna go back to KL. This weekend. But I’ve had enough of bus rides for a while. See la how it goes. I’m that bored here that you might actually catch me walking my way there! Lol.

p/s : I want to go out on a romantic dinner date.
Like seriously.
I haven’t had one of those in ages.
And I think I’m really missing fine dining.

Lil Jon Jyyyyeeeaahhhh!

Kuala Lumpur’s Mist Club launched it’s new urban night called Lollipop, and it went off with a big bang with the presence of Lil Jon! Famous for hits like ‘Snap Yo Fingers’, ‘Get Low’ and ‘Act A Fool’, Lil Jon dropped into Mist Club to make sure everyone got crunk.

And of course, how could I turn down the opportunity to be there as well.

The dance floor was packed as Lil Jon took the stage. There was barely any space to even dance. But it was awesome nonetheless. Pictures below.

Lil Jon himself. I would have taken a better picture of him, but really, I think I was too preoccupied dancing the night away. I’ve never heard better music being played in a club before. If Mist keeps up with the good music they play on Lollipop night, I definately see myself being there more often.

Starbucks with Weggie

I know I haven’t really updated recently, but I’ve been really tired travelling back and forth. Anyways, here’s the update. Went to Starbucks at G hotel with Weggie last week and just spent a few hours hanging around there. The cake was wonderful, but I couldnt even finish one piece. Too much chocolate. Yes, I know, I’m disappointed in myself too.

My hair’s that red now. I wanted blonde, but redish is fine too. Went back home after that and Uncle Gerry stopped by. Camillus came too. It’s been almost 2 years since I’ve seen that lil fella. And he is as cute as ever. Can’t believe i’ve never seen Claire, like ever. Must make it a point to go by Taiping once Ron’s done with his exams. Go stay there a few days and bond with the little cousins.

Camillus is gonna be some musical genius someday I’m guessing. At the rate he’s going, I wouldn’t be suprised if he didn’t stop at just 2 instruments. First he showed me how to play piano, he even drew me notes. Then he plaued guitar for all of us. Adorable, ain’t he.

It’s been quite some time since we’ve taken a family picture. This is probably as good as it will get, seeing as how everyone is too far away. Taken right before U. Ronny left for Germany.