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I spoke about you today.

I had to. As much as it hurt, I had to make them understand. It was never fair that you didn’t get the chance to live the life you deserved. But what made it unbearable was his claims that you never existed. That I lied. I fought for your existence. Knowing that they finally believed in you, that they finally understood brought such a comfort to me, I cried. But it was a cold comfort. And painful tears. Coz dealing with the decision I made is a never ending battle that I face everyday. Life goes on, and I continue living, the best that I can. But I will never forgive myself for giving up on you. For not being strong enough to let him go for you. I promise you this though. As long as I live, you will live through me. I think of you so very often, but today…

Today, I spoke about you.

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to the person you used to be

Especially for…

You, who have brought back the light into my life…

You, who have given me the strength to survive…

You, who have taught me to laugh and smile like never before…

You, who have given me a reason to believe in love once more…

It took a certain kind of person, to mend my once broken heart… And i owe it all to you…It was Your touch, that sent shivers down my spine… Your hugs, that filled me up with warmth…Your kisses that so gently left me tingling and Your voice, that so often filled my eyes up with tears…

And even as the days and weeks go by now, i will never forget the first moments i shared with you…The initial feelings of confusion, not knowing what i felt for you… The shy glances and sweaty palms, probably things u never realised…But thankfully those feelings, didn’t have to last too long this time. Coz backing away for once in my life, had been the right choice… Things always have a way of working themselves out. Somehow or another.

So i guess it comes to show, how much we’re meant to be.

And even tho i’ll just be the first on a list to you, u’ll always be mr right to me.

I’m still afraid of losing you someday, of gettin hurt again. But i told myself, a long time ago, i shall never let that stop me from cherishing the moments i have with you.

I’ll take the future as it comes, and forget the past as it goes,

but i will not give myself permission to take NOW for granted.

Coz right now, i have YOU.

So once again, i want you to know. That you’ve changed me and will forever be a part of my life. Without the kindness you spared for me, and the care you so willingly extend, i would not be able to do what i am doing at this very moment. Smiling…

And therefore, I am responsible for letting you know, that with every heartbeat and thought from the very depths of my heart and soul…

I love you……..

I loved you yesterday………

I loved you today………

And I will love you tomorrow………..

Crying

Eyes puffy, nose blocked
I need to stop crying now
Why won’t the pain stop?
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