I hate that in the past week, no matter what time I fall asleep,
I’m still somehow always up by 10 !!!
I fucking want to sleep !!!
I’m still sitting. Waiting.
It sucks when things aren’t in my hands.
But I guess that’s what trust is about right?
And I guess when tomorrow comes, the waiting would have been worth it.
It still aches. I do.
I’m so so tired.
I wish I could just fall asleep and not wake up.
Ever.
I want this all to end.
I’m so close to begging.
