Just cause I smile, you think I’m happy.
Even when I laugh and giggle, I don’t really mean it.
What makes you think really, that I am alright?
That I’m anywhere close to being alright.
Coz i’m not.
I’ve lost count of the times I’ve cried myself to sleep.
And woke up to tears again.
I’m not saying I won’t survive.
Coz I know I will.
I’ve been through hell and more with you.
And after everything, you still can’t just let me have some peace now.
You still insist on playing this game.
No matter what you say, or what you claim to try to do, the fact is this.
I am not alright. With this. With you.
So if everything you’re doing now is coz you understand.
Then why are you still getting everything wrong?
Why are you still screwing up?
I’ve given you more chances then you ever deserved.
I don’t want to fall asleep crying anymore.
I just wish everything would stop.
I wish you would.