She had the man of her dreams and some success. The friends she needed and everything else. She was so happy, and looking well. Then in a blink of her eyes, she lost everything. She tried to hold on to herself for so long. She didn’t want to lose herself. But on this one dark night, she slipped. She’s back on drugs again. Even though she knows it ain’t right. She can’t even call up her friends and ask them to save her. To bring her back. She’s so ashamed of herself coming full circle. Exactly where she was before. And once again with no one to run to. Nobody understood what it was like to be this girl. She wanted to run. And not tell a soul. But she couldn’t. No one seemed to realise, that even though in person she was there, her soul had began to disappear.
This goes out to you. And the bitch you drag along with you. If I ever see her fucking face around again. I swear. I’m smacking that smug little expression right of her bare cheeks. I let it be for such a long time, thinking poor little girl. All broken and hurt. But if that bitch knows how to giggle to your smart ass remarks, she better learn to deal with the consequences of things. The only reason I let you go is still, coz you are blood. And despite how ridiculous you have been through this situation and well, how much I simply fucking hate your guts. I can’t do anything. Coz unlike you, I don’t do crap like that to family. So yeah. This serves as a warning. To you. To her. Don’t fucking show up if you’re not gonna at least be civilised enough to talk things out. And if you still chose not to be civilised, well then, I’m not gonna be either.
You. Piss me off. Because you chose to walk away when you could have stayed. Because I’ve maybe needed a friend. Or some support through all this. And you’ve been a total bastard. Acting the way you have. But what pisses me off the most is that you are family. The real kind. And you still have the heart to turn away. If you were just a friend, I’d have confronted you a long time ago and give you a kick in the ass. But I can’t. Coz you’re not. I just wish sometimes you’d stop being such an idiot and realise that you’re being a hypocrite by being friends with him. When you’ve turned us away for a reason you could easilly use against him. And the balls you have to stand up for her. Acting like an angel. When really the person you should be standing up for has been in pain for a really long time. And no, I don’t even mean me.