“God took Noah into the flood and he also brought him out of it. Similarly,
he has not brought you to this point in your life to just abandon you.”
And sometimes its just too hard to say what I really need to.
I guess over time I’ve learnt to more or less deal with everything myself. And even though I may run to a close friend for a shoulder to cry on, at the end of the day, I’m back to being alone again. And I have no choice but to face it all. The days are okay. And going out takes my mind off things. But when the night comes, and the noise fades, it’s not alright anymore. It never is. Time hasn’t made it any easier.
The only thing that keeps me going is the fact that I believe this has all happened for a reason. This is what my life was meant to be. And if it is fated for things to get better, than I shall wait patiently for that day to come. Coz that’s all I can do at this point.
It’s good to be able to blog. But lately I just haven’t had much to say. Or I haven’t figured out how to say it. At the end, all this post is, is a mumblejumble of words and sentences that haven’t amounted to anything. You still don’t know what exactly has been bothering me. Or what’s been going on in my life. And it’s because I choose not to tell you anything.
Maybe someday when it no longer hurts or affects me anymore. Maybe someday when I know you’d read this and do something about it, not just sit there and stare then jump to another page as if what I’m going through doesn’t mean anything. Maybe someday when you care.
Til then. This is all you’re getting I guess.