I fell asleep in tears thinking bout you. Or well, the possibility of losing you. I woke up shivering feeling so sad. For a few moments, I didn’t realize what was going on or what I was feeling. Then I reached out for my phone to send u a text. You know, to see if you were awake like I always do. And it hit me. I kinda already have.
Lost you, I mean.
It’s been a few months since I’ve felt this way. It’s freaky being back at this point. It’s not entirely the same though. This time, I have no one to hate, no one to take this frustration out on. All I’m expected to do now is patiently wait. I don’t know for how long. I don’t even know exactly what for. But that’s what I’m gonna do. Wait. I hope this waiting changes things. Makes us better.
Coz really, I’m so sick and tired of this damn cycle.