Monthly Archives: July 2010


If God is the DJ, then Life is the dance floor,
Love is the rhythm, and You are the music.

Today I Learnt

I don’t know why I bother believing in the bullshit guys say. That whole, “I’m not like all those other guys out there. I wouldn’t do that to a girl” crap, is just that. CRAP. Makes me appreciate being single a whole lot more. I’ve almost forgotten how much heartache comes with dating.
Today, I also learnt that it sucks more when the guy isn’t a random person hurting me, but a close friend hurting someone I love. I don’t know how to begin to react to this. Am I supposed to pretend to be fine with everything? Coz really, I’m not. I know how bad I’ve hurt in the situation. You know how bad I’ve hurt. How could you say that you wanna hurt guys that have done that to me, then end up doing something stupid like that to someone else yourself?
If you weren’t someone I’ve known so well for so long, now would be when I’d say I hate you. Seriously.


Sometimes I think of you before I fall asleep.
I wonder what it’d be like to be in your arms.
To hold you, kiss you, love you.
But it still confuses me, so much.
Why can’t everything just be simpler?


Aicha by Outlandish.
Brings back memories.

Will always love that song.

So much Strength

You know what I was thinking? It takes so much more strength to not believe in God, than to believe in him. Really. I was jumping through blogs and came across a couple of religious posts (yes, a person like me has religious friends) and it felt like all they were talking about was the strength they had from believing that God’s there to “watch over you and lead you towards the right path”.
Who do us non-believers have to count on at the end of the day? Ourselves. And isn’t it harder to face reality that way? Something goes wrong in life, I don’t turn around and say “God is with me, everything will sort itself out”. Faced with an obstacle and I don’t go “Nothing could oppose me because my God is with me”. And I’ve never prayed for God to “Keep me together and keep my sanity”. And yet, I’ve managed to stay sane. Well, for the most part.
Why is it that people still feel the need to tell me to go to church and pray to God? That once I surrender myself to him, I wouldn’t feel so lost anymore. I think I’ve done pretty darn well considering the things that I’ve had to deal with over the past few years. I have not blamed anything on God, so why should I turn to him to plead for a break? Really. What’s the logic in that? Whether or not I believe in God, life will go on, and things will continue to happen. Will it not? You have your source of strength. I have mine.
I’ve had it with the many “You should change your ways and repent” talks. The “I love you (but not really) and that’s why I’m saying this to you” put downs. Have you stopped to consider that maybe sometimes I think you’re the one that’s weird. I just don’t believe that weird is bad. If I’m fine with you just the way you are, why don’t I get the same kind of acceptance in return? And if you know it’s that way, how could you think that being judgmental makes you so much better of a person than I am?
Honestly I don’t mean to offend all the religious people out there. you may not be in reference to anyone. Or, it might actually mean YOU. And in that case, YOU may take offence, then proceed on to walking out of my life. Don’t really want you around anymore anyways.
You have your way. I have my way.
As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist.
– Friedrich Nietzsche.