I love listening to sad songs in the rain. It no longer makes me feel miserable. For some reason, there’s a certain calmness that comes with closing my eyes and listening to raindrops hit the ground. Sometimes feels like its part of a video clip to the songs I’m listening to. I just wanna sit and play those songs on loop and just let my mind drift off. Things have been so messy the past half a year. I miss that calm. I miss feeling like there’s nothing to worry about, nothing to cry over. It’s been better in ways, the past month. But I just wanna run into the arms of someone I love and just not have to say anything sometimes. I miss having someone who understands me. I miss being loved.
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts.
I am damaged at best, like you’ve already figured out.