Today you decided to walk away from someone who has been very important to you. You know what you did wrong. And you know what to do from here. You hope she knows that you love her. But you also hope that she knows that she did something horrible. You did not deal with the situation well, but neither did she. Old you would have probably brushed it off and not given a damn then waited for a while and then pretend to be fine with it until you actually felt okay with it. But you have gone through enough over the past few years to know that sometimes, no matter how much you love a person, it’s not gonna be enough.
You hate knowing that you’re going to be giving up on something you worked hard on for months. But not having that person in your life is more bearable than having to deal with constant drama. You’re trying to move on with life and leave all that behind. Less fighting. Less drama. Remember?
You want to love unconditionally, but really.
Not loving is better than trying so hard to love the wrong person.
And no, don’t ask who. Or what happened. Or why it happened.
This is just me talking to myself.