today, i start new.
seems befitting, seeing as how my life over the past year or so has felt in many ways, new. perhaps that’s the exact reason why I haven’t written or felt like writing in ages. it’s as if i was blindfolded and taken on a journey. no guide, no instructions, just a knowing that it was leading me somewhere and that somewhere was where i was meant to be. maybe years ago, i would have gladly taken that leap, no questions asked, just a smile on my face. but feeling as though i’ve experienced more than enough in the short (yet seemingly long) time that i’ve been on my own, i guess i wasn’t willing to let go of the comfort i had settled into and face the unknown.
leaving a life, a personality, the you that you’ve known behind is daunting! acting based on a gut instinct, with no real promise of a better future, just an endless road of maybes, well that’s just downright pee-your-pants scary!
it took so much energy facing new challenges and i had to tap into every last ounce of strength i could muster up that I really didn’t feel like doing anything for myself, let alone write.
i guess you could say i was busy living. even though when people ask me what i’ve been up to in recent times, i barely have exciting stories to tell. but living is so much more than going out and having fun. instead of exploring what the world beyond me has to offer, i’ve delved into the depths of my mind and soul.
i really have been meaning to write for a while now, since the storm has passed and the dust, settled. so many new thoughts to share. but going back to my old blog with all the memoirs of my yesteryear stopped feeling right a long time ago. that just isn’t me anymore. an important part of my past no doubt, but somewhere along that journey, i crossed a check point and stepped into what clearly is a new chapter in my life. i feel somewhat reborn, however far-fetched that may sound.
so here I am today, starting new.
i sincerely hope you enjoy reading my stories as much as i enjoy telling them :)