i think for the first time since i started blogging 5 years ago, i can say i haven’t updated because i’ve been busy and really truly mean it. life has been quite hectic, but in the most amazing of ways. as everyone probably already knows by now, rainbowed kicked off not too long ago.
i’m not really the kind of person who spends time thinking of achieving big things. not because i’m not capable of dreaming them up. i am. but in many ways i’ve always feared wanting these seemingly illusive accomplishments, feared i would not be able to cope with the disappointment i’d feel towards myself for failing. even though i’ve always in some way or another done what i’ve wanted to do, i’ve kept myself from setting goals and having such desires. settled for being an extraordinary person, doing somewhat ordinary things.
but the time for change has come. the old me dies with the mayan calender. the me that allowed myself to not chase the stars. the me that feared imperfection. the me that saw failure.
this me knows how much i’m capable of achieving, as soon as i put my mind (heart and soul) to it. i no longer want to go by unnoticed; just a regular joe. sure, i will never be a ceo of some world renown company. or lead my country in politics. or make millions of dollars to stash in my bank account. but i will dream, and dream big!
i will do what i do. i will give it my all.
i will live with passion, self belief and determination.
then through sharing it, i will change the world.
and if anyone ever sees me letting myself off the hook for giving up, slap me in the face! with, like, words or something. not literally ;)
p/s: i have been using any free time i have to pick up playing poi. coz it’s one of the few things i’ve chosen to try and focus on at the moment. and it’s awesome!