Monthly Archives: August 2013

i believe

i am not religious, nor am i an atheist. spiritual, but not completely.

i believe in a creator. in some ways, that is god to me – the exact same way others may know god (religious or not).

i believe souls are created in love – to live, to learn, to experience, to understand the love we came from and to pass that love on to every other living entity in our realm so that love itself may live on forever.

i believe we are souls having a human experience. souls which have lived before this lifetime and will continue to live after. souls that have seen more than our eyes will ever see and are wiser than the limits of our human minds.

i believe every living thing exists to serve a communal purpose. parts of a huge jigsaw puzzle very few live to figure out. every piece seemingly unimportant, yet crucial to life. tiny beings with the power to come together to change the world for the better.

i believe in a moral compass. a built in instinct – intuition that allows us to know right from wrong, kind from cruel, good from bad.

i believe that intentions mean more than actions. and those who chose to act from love but have nothing to give are giving more than any who chose to act from fear/greed/anger/envy.

i believe in karmic retribution. that for every action, there is an equal reaction. one which without our knowing or understanding, will find its way to us as a return of the energy we send out.

i believe in change. an inevitable path we set out to walk as we grow up and then sometimes lose track of as age sets in. change – that turns a pure soul of a child dark but also allows darkness to fade away.

i believe we are not in control of anything but ourselves. but through knowing ourselves, we have influence over anything and everything we cross paths with.

i believe in mind over matter. that everyone is capable of being anyone they want to be – if they put their minds to it.

i believe in being selfless. in the purest form of happiness existing only when we are choosing not to be selfish. in doing good. in giving. in kindness. in being generous.

i believe in truth. with everything that we do and everything that we are. creating a world free from a need for lies, fear or hiding.

i believe in accepting the things you cannot change, changing the things you can and being wise enough to know the difference.

i believe in yin and yang. not as opposite forces, but complementary to create a balance. that one without the other is neither and together they are joy.

i believe in the paradox of life. how identity can not be found for those who continue to seek, yet does not exist for those who don’t.

i believe in the overwhelming grandeur of unconditional love.
i believe everything comes from, is full of and will end with love. all we have to do is allow it to.

i believe in many things, past and present. some beliefs will stay, some will change, some will disappear. i don’t necessarily enjoy getting into discussions about beliefs because everyone has a different method of choice in conveying their beliefs. i just hope by sharing, it makes understanding me and seeing who i am – a little easier.

and perhaps people who think they have nothing in common with me realise that maybe we are quite alike. maybe even, that everyone – despite the differences we have on the surface (or even beneath it) – is no different from anyone else.

all these issues over racism. religious/ethnic hate crimes. looking down on others. passing judgement because of different choices/views/preferences. abuse. cruelty. violence. punishment. pain. anger. resentment. hostility. aggression. what for, really? 

aren’t we ALL the same? don’t we all just want to love and be loved? what soul left untainted by the influence of others’ twisted individual preferences would want to cause harm to any living creature for the sake of pleasure or righteousness? don’t we all come into this world wanting nothing but peace and happiness? what if the key to happiness is acceptance – of the world, of ourselves, of each other? why can’t we all just love instead of look for excuses/justifications to allow ourselves to fall weak to negative emotions?

i believe that if we all try, harder than we ever have and never give up, light will eventually swallow darkness up whole.
i believe that we can.

au naturel

i’ve decided to go green. in as many ways as life allows me to at the moment. i put it that way because there’s so much more i want to do and change, but planning things take time. saving up for it does too. but over the past few months i have done my research and decided to take the first few steps, which i hear can be the hardest thing to do.


i have 1 – stopped using shampoo and conditioner, mainly because dreads do not do well with products and also because products do actually damage your hair and skin, when it gets washed down your face and body. so i am now using the no-(sham)poo method. that means replacing shampoo with a baking soda + water mix and conditioning with apple cider vinegar + water.

i have also 2 – quit facial wash and replaced it with a combination of lemon/papaya/banana/yogurt/honey/aloevera. i am very happy to report that since quitting facial products completely, my skin no longer gets irritated, it looks healthier and glows more without ever getting oily. and my decade long battle with acne has finally come to an end!!! even at that time of the month when my skin usually decides to be a pain in my ass. apparently all the effort i put in with experimenting on all kinds of different creams/washes/scrubs was pointless because it kept my skin from healing instead of doing what it said it would do – fix it. took a while for me to really realize the damage that make up had on my skin as well. shouldn’t the priority of any advertising be a warning of how fucked up these products actually are?


moving on…
thanks to my boyfriend’s love of nature and desire to have a farm, we have started 3 – planting our own greens. lucky me!

b1 b2

we now have a LOT of stuff growing in and around the house. aloevera, oregano, chili, lime, papaya, brinjal, ladies finger, cucumber, sunflower, caladium, citronella geranium (anti mosquito plant) and crawlers. watching and waiting for them to grow is such a joy and torture at the same time. i wish i could go to sleep and wake up to fully matured plants that are flowering/fruiting but that’s just not how nature works, is it?

this process of going natural is teaching me to be patient and content with what is. i have discovered that being one with nature is extremely relaxing and healing. it’s shocking how people have drifted away from everything natural to live in a society centered on stress. work and technology. i personally would not remove technology from anyone’s life, but i think balance between the new and old is key. if you asked me, everyone should grow their own edible fruits/vegetables. it’s cost effective too, not having to buy greens once u can just harvest your own!

life has been so good to me! i find myself increasingly happier by the day and even when i don’t ask for more, happy things keep finding a way to sneak up on me and smack me right in the face.


our cat (shpongle) had 3 kittens a week back. they are too adorable! when we had shpongle and her first 3 kittens, their genders were almost impossible to guess. but since having them and knowing what to look out for, i’m pretty sure we just had 2 boys and a girl. full confirmation only possible when the boys’ balls become visible :D