Category Archives: religion

festival of light

sometimes it’s important to work for that pot of gold. but other times it’s essential to take time off and to make sure that your most important decision in the day simply consists of choosing which color to slide down on the rainbow.

honestly, what good is material wealth when one’s soul is malnourished? i see so many people who seem to have a lot, chase for more and never get enough. i think somewhere along the way i reached a point where i realised that i not only have enough, i have too much. wayyyy too much. and then i started giving things away – products, clothes, gadgets. having less has been surprisingly freeing and fulfilling at the same time. teaching myself to not be too attached to desires has created space for me to enjoy the much finer things in life. to go back to the basics, to be simple. i will not waste this lifetime in pursuit of temporary pleasures. instead, i choose to feed my soul. i try to spend time really observing my surrounding which then makes me think of life on a much larger scale and as that awareness grows, so do i.

what i achieve inwardly changes my outer reality and now, i can be so thankful for everything i have. today is deepavali and – for the first time in my life – actually feels like it. having warm housemates that want to share the festive season and waking up to yummy indian food has filled the day with so much love. and it’s only noon. it means so much to me to be living in this house – so tucked away we couldn’t have found it even if we tried. being so happy here serves as a daily reminder to trust my instincts and take leaps of faith when i can.

today is the first day of the rest of my life. i’ve been told that when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it. so i’m going to want wisely.

i believe

i am not religious, nor am i an atheist. spiritual, but not completely.

i believe in a creator. in some ways, that is god to me – the exact same way others may know god (religious or not).

i believe souls are created in love – to live, to learn, to experience, to understand the love we came from and to pass that love on to every other living entity in our realm so that love itself may live on forever.

i believe we are souls having a human experience. souls which have lived before this lifetime and will continue to live after. souls that have seen more than our eyes will ever see and are wiser than the limits of our human minds.

i believe every living thing exists to serve a communal purpose. parts of a huge jigsaw puzzle very few live to figure out. every piece seemingly unimportant, yet crucial to life. tiny beings with the power to come together to change the world for the better.

i believe in a moral compass. a built in instinct – intuition that allows us to know right from wrong, kind from cruel, good from bad.

i believe that intentions mean more than actions. and those who chose to act from love but have nothing to give are giving more than any who chose to act from fear/greed/anger/envy.

i believe in karmic retribution. that for every action, there is an equal reaction. one which without our knowing or understanding, will find its way to us as a return of the energy we send out.

i believe in change. an inevitable path we set out to walk as we grow up and then sometimes lose track of as age sets in. change – that turns a pure soul of a child dark but also allows darkness to fade away.

i believe we are not in control of anything but ourselves. but through knowing ourselves, we have influence over anything and everything we cross paths with.

i believe in mind over matter. that everyone is capable of being anyone they want to be – if they put their minds to it.

i believe in being selfless. in the purest form of happiness existing only when we are choosing not to be selfish. in doing good. in giving. in kindness. in being generous.

i believe in truth. with everything that we do and everything that we are. creating a world free from a need for lies, fear or hiding.

i believe in accepting the things you cannot change, changing the things you can and being wise enough to know the difference.

i believe in yin and yang. not as opposite forces, but complementary to create a balance. that one without the other is neither and together they are joy.

i believe in the paradox of life. how identity can not be found for those who continue to seek, yet does not exist for those who don’t.

i believe in the overwhelming grandeur of unconditional love.
i believe everything comes from, is full of and will end with love. all we have to do is allow it to.

i believe in many things, past and present. some beliefs will stay, some will change, some will disappear. i don’t necessarily enjoy getting into discussions about beliefs because everyone has a different method of choice in conveying their beliefs. i just hope by sharing, it makes understanding me and seeing who i am – a little easier.

and perhaps people who think they have nothing in common with me realise that maybe we are quite alike. maybe even, that everyone – despite the differences we have on the surface (or even beneath it) – is no different from anyone else.

all these issues over racism. religious/ethnic hate crimes. looking down on others. passing judgement because of different choices/views/preferences. abuse. cruelty. violence. punishment. pain. anger. resentment. hostility. aggression. what for, really? 

aren’t we ALL the same? don’t we all just want to love and be loved? what soul left untainted by the influence of others’ twisted individual preferences would want to cause harm to any living creature for the sake of pleasure or righteousness? don’t we all come into this world wanting nothing but peace and happiness? what if the key to happiness is acceptance – of the world, of ourselves, of each other? why can’t we all just love instead of look for excuses/justifications to allow ourselves to fall weak to negative emotions?

i believe that if we all try, harder than we ever have and never give up, light will eventually swallow darkness up whole.
i believe that we can.

atheist

“This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness.” – Dalai Lama.

i have often been asked if i am an atheist. in a culture that sees my lack of religion as a clear indicator of atheism, i have always had a hard time coming up with a response accurate enough to describe my beliefs. mostly because going into an explanation would take more time than i feel the person i’m conversing with would be willing to spare. most people don’t seem too curious past the point of a simple yes or no. but neither answer does the question, nor my belief system any justice.

see, i believe in god, but not as an old man in the sky, not someone/thing that is there to judge me at the end of my life. perhaps i should explain, i was raised religiously (on paper) a roman catholic. i spent some years going to church, listening to sermons, understanding the faith i was supposed to practice. for the most part, i don’t recall having a problem with what i chose to sit through. i attempted to read the bible, and tried my best to pay attention in catechism class. but as i have never fitted into the mold of a religious girl (to say the least), facing people was always challenging. my appearance and life choices were subject to gossip and criticism. who i was, was never who i was expected to be.

what i learnt from church was that religious people are no different from everyone else. except that maybe some of them behave a little more righteous, because what religion preaches is as good as law in their eyes.

i chose then to not believe in organised religion. not because i am anti christ, or krishna/ allah/ buddha. any god, all gods are fine by me. i truly feel that it’s alright for an individual to believe whatever they choose to, so long as what they believe is in no way harming those around them. and i mean hurting, abusing, murdering people kind of harm. not corrupting minds by revealing skin. For some reason, there are people in the world who think dressing however they want to dress may offend the gods, and tell others that they are going to hell for doing so.

i believe that what religious people call god, is something in all of us. something that connects us to the world beyond us, the pathway to life after death, the source of which we came from. i think believing in that alone disqualifies me from being an atheist. which i wouldn’t say i am anyways.

in all honesty, my spirituality is still very much it’s infant years. it is only in the recent years that i have put thought into why my mind works the way it works. i may see certain things now, the way i see it, but at the same time i know that the only constant is change. and that as i experience more in life, i will choose to open myself up to the possibility of anything i may encounter.

why is it that religion has to be so stiff/rigid? how can one person believe the exact same thing someone else believes just because a book, or a person told them so? in my opinion, any individual who has yet to form beliefs of their own, independent from the general preaching, is an individual that hasn’t spent much time getting to know themselves.

i believe in knowing myself. i believe in walking my path. i believe in not giving anyone else the power to intimidate me with the idea of heaven and hell.

i don’t believe in heaven and hell.

but i reckon if it did exist, god wouldn’t look too highly on those who judge, instead of love their fellow men and women, equally ;)