Category Archives: breaking the system


is it just me? or do people seem to get more and more defeated by life as we all get older? my generation of people are now in their 20s, and finally understanding what it’s like to become part of the adult world. i have noticed so many people expressing their dissatisfaction with a dead end job, or one they don’t even enjoy doing, complaining about stress – but that’s all they do. they don’t seem to want to get out of those situations. they just put up with it, and be unsatisfied.

where was it said that we have to just get with the program and do what we are expected/told to do, to survive? did i not get a memo on that? is it naive to believe that we can do what we are passionate about in life, and still live?

it must come down to money. it always does. everyone thinking that we need money to be happy, to buy things, to go places, to enjoy life – which makes jobs our lifelines. our only means to survive, at such a young age.

no i don’t think that money has no importance in this world. i wish it didn’t, but we can’t change the situation we were born into, and it does. but i find it funny when some friends express their dissatisfaction and obvious desire to be free, then tell me that i’m lucky or they wish they could just have it easy like me. because i haven’t worked for anyone but myself in 4 years, work stress is non-existent to me but yet i seem to be able to buy things and go places.

but i don’t exactly buy things. not anything i don’t absolutely need. i survive because i live extremely thriftily. you know that new phone or cool gadget that just came out? i don’t. how about the latest brands or trends in fashion? i don’t. you’d have to tell me which make up or beauty care products are any good too, coz i definitely don’t know that either. and that’s just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to things i don’t keep up with anymore.

i used to care so much. too much. and many years of whatever hard earned income i had went into a lifestyle that brought me no good or benefit. i spent way too much on going out, meeting people, partying, buying alcoholic beverages, having fancy meals, going on shopping sprees, holidays. but the satisfaction i got from any of that hardly lasted at all. they were temporary fixes, but never actually fixed anything. it was a lifestyle that had to be maintained at all costs, or the fun i was having would just stop. i wouldn’t be able to afford anything, and then what would i do? how would i enjoy myself? how would i be happy?

that is why i set myself free. i am lucky. lucky to have had all my fun at a very young age and learn my lesson right after, with more than enough time to make a 180 turn for the better, before my life truly began. i also earned my right to do what i enjoy doing and not be stressed out. my partner and i budget our expenses and save some for rainy days, not spending more than we should on anything that we don’t actually need while taking risks with business opportunities to find something we really love doing that will bring in a long term income so we can plan towards buying a land and being self sustainable to give our children (and parents in their old age) a healthy life closer to nature where money and stress isn’t everything anymore.

you can call me naive, but i know there is much more to life than just working a job to make a “living”. working days and hours that leave me with not enough time to spend with people i love, travel or work on skills and hobbies. money to go on pointless shopping sprees to reward myself and make up for the dissatisfaction. “stability” that enables me to get a loan to buy a house that i barely spend time in, and a car to get me to the wretched job that would be responsible of keeping me from truly living in the first place.

it’s all a big loop to me. where is the end? i see people of our elder generations – having lived their lives the way they were expected to – worrying about retirement and where they go after. worrying because whatever money they’ve made is still not enough to take care of everyone’s evergrowing needs. what’s really scary though, is that i see them unhappy. what good is monetary income and material wealth when our elder generations, 20 – 30 – 40 years ahead of us have in many ways achieved all of that, and aren’t happy yet.

we think we put up with work and all it’s torture in the now, so we can save enough – and then live the lives we wanna live. but if we don’t really think about the decisions we’re making, one thing just leads to another and before we know it, we are 70, with the best years of our health and lives behind us – then only realising there were so many things we wish we did different. it’s the someday syndrome. someday i will quit my job. someday i will spend more time with my family. someday i will travel with my friends. someday this, someday that. and then, that someday never happens.

39so to anyone with passion that i happen to cross paths with who is stuck in a situation that makes them unhappy, i try to say the same one thing. chase that passion now. follow your rainbow. even if it’s risky and isn’t what others expect of you – just do it. because we should, before more time is wasted doing what we don’t want to do. whatever age we are at now, we don’t gain any time by waiting a little longer. we shouldn’t let money be our sole guide in the now, especially if we are young! while we have the space to find what we want to do, we shouldn’t tie ourselves down to loans and job commitments. we owe it to ourselves to discover what makes us feel fulfilled, and from there – work on making a living from it. you can use your income to shop and travel all you want now, but if the reality that you go back to is something that’s not satisfactory, no amount of escapism is going to change that.

free yourself first. it takes effort and sacrifices, but the freedom is certainly well worth the trouble.



i have been trying to find a good old folks / nursing home for my grandparents who i know aren’t too far from needing a place to go where they can be looked after and kept entertained in their golden years. i am appalled at my findings so far as i can say with certainty, 9 out of 10 places are below par and the ones that aren’t will most definitely cost a bomb.

it makes me sad to think of the condition of living in this country, and how old folks for the most part, are on the loosing end of things. reality seems to be – if you don’t have enough money to hire a live in maid or check yourself into a pricey place, you have no choice but to live out the rest of your life in conditions that will suffocate you and take the joy out of what should be a very peaceful journey towards your final departure.

i want even more now to invest on a land, a few acres if possible, build my family a home and provide space for my children to run around freely and my parents to retire and grow old. i believe tribes have it right, living life together, sharing all responsibilities and burdens. more people to help raise the young and care for the old, together.

but that’s not society anymore, is it?

everyone trying so hard to make a living for themselves, not thinking about the rest of the world. i get it though. if you don’t belong to the minority of people who have found a way to make a living out of something they really love, life is hard. life is fucking hard. if you don’t work, you don’t make money and you are doomed to poverty – something i wouldn’t curse on my worst of enemies (not that i have any). if you work, you spend all your time at your job making as much money as you can – and hate your life a little when you find you barely have time for yourself (let alone anyone else), then waste said money on unnecessary expenses which are justified by of all the hard work you do only to find yourself truly still not satisfied.

everyone’s so caught up struggling for a “better” life. what counts as better anyways?

i want to dream big. i want to aim high. i have been shown that there really is so much more we can achieve beyond the illusion of money. someday i will provide a better life for those around me. there will be land for people to roam happily. plants to tend to. pets to take care of. activities to get involved with.

when my partner first shared his ultimate desire to live communally, it freaked me out, and made me think he was a little crazy. the thought of having to share my space with other people was intrusive. intrusive on this bubble that i call my space. intrusive on my past dreams and goals (which clearly didn’t come from a space of awareness). intrusive on the walls society helped lay foundation and bricks to. but i am no longer scared.

next month, i move into a new house *YAY* a place i will call home for the next phase of my life – before we get our land. and this will be a shared space. not in a housemate-everyone has their own room kinda way. but as two families living under one roof, as one. practice for the future – where i promise (myself) to live unselfishly so others may benefit from the hard work we put in together and the young, middle aged and/or old will no longer have to worry as much about caring for themselves. that is the pot of gold waiting for me at the end of this rainbow.


every time someone gives me attitude and tells me that marijuana is a drug and therefore isn’t good or “right”, i feel like reaching over and strangling them out of frustration. but there is no point in trying to educate people who choose to remain ignorant, so I say the bare minimum and pretend to not be offended by their lack of knowledge or common sense.

attached here is some reading material for those of you who are doubtful about this “drug”.
still believe nature got it wrong? top 10 health benefits of marijuana
“No independent study has ever linked marijuana to psychosocial problems. Cannabis is one of the most powerful healing plants on the planet. Dozens of studies have made pseudoscientific attempts to indicate that young people who use cannabis tend to experience psychological, social problems and mental decline. However, there is no evidence that marijuana use is directly linked with such problems”

marijuana facts
“The conception of marijuana as a potentially fatal, highly addictive narcotic, on which much of last century’s anti-weed propaganda was built, has been disproved by science, which has shown that it’s almost literally impossible for humans to consume enough THC to overdose. (In fact, dying from drinking too much water would be far easier.) ”

10 facts about marijuana 
“There is no compelling evidence that marijuana contributes substantially to traffic accidents and fatalities. In driving studies, marijuana produces little or no car-handling impairment – consistently less than produced by low to moderate doses of alcohol and many legal medications. In contrast to alcohol, which tends to increase risky driving practices, marijuana tends to make subjects more cautious. ”

marijuana vs cigarettes
“After 20 years of testing, researchers found some buzzworthy results: regular marijuana smokers (defined by up to a joint a day for seven years) had no discernible impairment in lung activity from non-smokers. In fact, researchers were surprised to find marijuana smokers performed slightly better than both smokers and non-smokers on the lung performance test. Why? The most likely explanation seems to be that the act of inhaling marijuana—holding each puff in for as long as possible—is a lot like a pulmonary function test, giving marijuana smokers an edge over their cigarette smoking counterparts.”

if you choose to read it, good on you for at least wanting to expose yourself to the truth. there’s a lot you may not know about marijuana. here’s some history on why it became an illegal substance
why marijuana became illegal
“Marijuana has been around since the dawn of recorded history. The first known use of cannabis dates to 7,000 B.C. Marijuana was used as a medicinal herb by the ancient Chinese, Egyptians, Greeks, and Romans for stomach ailments, cramps, and pain. Marijuana was first used in the U.S. for medical purposes in the 1800’s, however, the cannabis (hemp) plant fiber had been in use for thousands of years. Hemp fiber was the main ingredient of the first woven fabric. Hemp was used to make rope, twine, cloth, and paper among other things.”

ignorance annoys me. are we not from the age of information where knowledge is at the tip of our fingers? with all the proof and studies out there, should we not know to question authority when it is being selfish or downright stupid? have we not evolved enough to understand that
– our government does not have our best interest at heart
– our government lies
– there’s a ton of truth being concealed from the general public because someone stands to gain selfishly from it
– we should not just blindly believe what the law tells us

i think it’s wrong that we are being lied to about marijuana. it is frustrating when marijuana is categorized as a drug because it is truly almost harmless. there are much harder drugs in fact, even prescription medicines have more damaging effects if we’re being honest. i think it’s time to come clean and tell the truth.  if you are not part of the solution, you are part of the problem. best decisions are made when the real facts are presented. if you are worried, don’t just tell someone they’re doing something wrong when you don’t even understand what you are talking about. education on the real benefits and effects of this NATURAL PLANT is key in changing the way things are. this is an opportunity for everyone to have a better understanding of reality. if you can’t handle reality, well, then i guess you shouldn’t be on my page ;)

david vs goliath

in a world that feeds on consumerism, nothing stands to threaten the system as effectively as the power we have as consumers, customers, shoppers – someone’s target audience.

why we don’t choose to fully utilize our ability to change the very world we see, i can only guess at. what i do know though is that as a consumer myself, my decisions play a part in this world being what it is now, and becoming what it will be in the future. i have come to see over time that it is not only the big decisions that we make, but also the mundane everyday things we don’t pay attention to that are shaping our society.

imagine if we decided to change our habits. to question who our money is going to, where it is being spent and how those decisions affect humanity on a larger scale. wouldn’t we be so much more careful in spending our hard earned cash? money that makes the world go round. money that people can’t live without. money that time and time again falls into the wrong hands and results in decisions being made for us, behind our backs, without our consent – effectively lowering the quality of our lifestyles.

realising my power, i have chosen to withdraw my unintentional support towards money hungry corporations who care about nothing else but the profit in their pockets at the end of the day. that list includes but is not limited to :-

fast food chains – a&w, burger king, carls jr, dunkin donuts, kenny rogers roasters, kfc, marrybrown, mcdonalds, nandos, pizza hut, wendys.

with obesity being an epidemic and health being a main concern, what better way than to stop feeding money to fast food chains who compete to provide lower, more affordable unhealthy meals to the general public? is their food tasty? hell yes. i myself got fat (20 kilos heavier than i am now) on fast food because when you don’t think about what you’re eating, it’s extremely irresistible. there are absolutely no health benefits from such meals though, and wouldn’t it be much better for the world if those places went out of business and made way for healthier-but-still-yummy alternatives? subway deserves an “honorable” mention here because all throughout my adult years, i thought subway was that healthier alternative. but do you know that if you add on cheese and sauce (which is free, so why would we not), it ends up having more calories and salt than a big mac?

cosmetic companies – avon, bobbi brown, chanel, clean and clear, clinique, clearasil, dove, donna karan, elizabeth arden, estee lauder, garnier, head & shoulders, l’oreal, l’occitane, lancome, mac, maybelline, neutrogena, olay, pantene, revlon, shiseido, sunsilk.

secondly, i believe that the advertising industry has over the years led many astray and created a culture in which we are constantly chasing perfection. unnecessary perfection. as a matter of fact, perfection that doesn’t even exist to begin with. and in that search for unobtainable perfection, we expose ourselves to all kinds of chemicals and contaminants which at best, create an illusion of improvement. i recently found out that shampoo washing over my face was actually damaging my skin and the soap i took for granted was getting me clean has also been drying out my skin and fast-forwarding its aging. the alternative here? natural products. from the earth. so much healthier, and cheaper!

monsanto, syngenta, dow agrosciences, basf, bayer, dupont – producers of genetically engineered seeds and their chemical herbicide and insecticide counterparts. environmentally, monsanto crops are engineered to be immune to herbicide so that farmers can destroy weeds without killing their crops, but the process has spawned roundup resistant weeds, forcing farmers to apply bigger doses of the chemical or use even more toxic methods to get rid of the superweeds – poisoning our insects, birds, aquatic life, atmosphere and everything else along the way. monsanto already has an office in damansara. food companies under monsanto (that are not legally required to let you know that their products contain GMO ) – cadburry, campbells, coca cola, famous amos, heinz, hunts, knorr, kellogs, craft/phillip morris, pepsi, pillsbury, pringles, quaker, shweppes.

that seems like a very long list, and in all honesty – it is. i understand how completely reasonable it is for any individual to feel like at least once in a while, they should get to treat themselves to tempting fast food, buy and use products and be an average, normal person. there are days where i’d like to not care about anything and revert back to my old habits too. but i have made a personal choice to be a tad bit extreme and learn to live without such junk because i believe my little purchases count for more than i’d like them to.

as consumers, we are often unaware of our purchasing power or the effect we have on each other – on a global scale. however, consumers no longer need to live in ignorance. there is a whole world of information that has been made available to us so we can (when we choose to) be aware of the truth. my choices may seem educated to some and completely crazy to others. to me, it is not a change i am making only for the betterment of myself and my life, it is a way in which i feel i am capable of giving back to earth and humanity.

there are many ways, many people can make a difference. we don’t all have to do the same thing, but we do have to individually be aware and try our goddamned best. don’t get too comfortable with the world you think you know today. don’t settle for the supposed reality we are being fed. the odds have not been so heavily stacked against good since david took on goliath but as we begin to realise our power together – us many little people who feel like nobodies will see that we have always been strong enough to knock those big guys off their greedy, selfish asses ;)

dreaming realist

what if i told you my dream is to someday live on a farm? to rear animals and have fresh fruits and vegetables growing in my own backyard. to spend my days cooking meals for my family, taking care of our land and raising my children. to not live with luxuries or money, but instead be modest, humble and self sustainable.

does that change the way you look at me? do you see me as unambitious because i refuse to chase a career? will you see me as poor?

i envision a world where every family has ample land. where people realise that all we need to survive is LOVE, some food on our table and a roof over our heads. where no one needs to suffer to make money and children are raised by wise parents who know how to love and have time to spend with them. where everyone’s bare feet are familiar with walking on earth. not some concrete floor. or carpets. or tiles. there would be fresh air to breathe, real food to eat, active lifestyles to live and an abundance of love.

in this world, there would be so much less suffering. less dependence on technology. less strive and desperation to make money for meaningless purchases. people would just be happy with the basics. enjoying human interaction. watching plants grow and animals play around. animals would run free instead of sit in cages awaiting their death; a much more pleasant experience then what living is to them.

we would spend lifetimes getting to know each other. building bonds, understanding, loving, supporting one another as we journey through life. people would welcome strangers into their lives with open arms and not hidden agendas. we would be hardworking and trustworthy out of choice, not force. and when someone fails to do their part or makes a mistake, we would combat that with love. not punishments, anger or hate.

what if this world i envision is not out of reach? what if many people envision the same thing, but have given up hope or don’t believe that it’s possible? what if all it takes is for everyone to just believe – and then it comes true?

we are the people who make this world/culture we live in. if we want change and we start being that change, who’s to tell us that such a seemingly far fetched idea isn’t just a step away?

yes, it will be hard. but the only people stopping us from truly enjoying life is ourselves. i refuse to be my own enemy. this world i envision, i will start living it. even if the rest of the world doesn’t join me.

my measure of wealth is not what i can buy for myself or what holidays i can afford. it is how understanding i can be. how much love i can give. how much i can appreciate having the few things that matter and ignore not having the rest.

the less i need, the richer i am.

i sure am glad i came to this realization with so much left of my life to live.