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Our culture?

I really don’t get it.
The Malaysian government has chosen to keep abortions illegal.
Yet the Malaysian culture does not support mothers who choose to keep children born out of wedlock.
How does this make sense in any way?
I personally know a few people who would have not opted for abortion, had it not been because of the fact that they would have been shunned/disowned by their own family members.
Now I get how Asians are proud of the fact that we hold culture and religion close to heart.
But in what religion does it say that it is okay to kill?
And what culture are we cultivating if we do not learn to accept that abortion is not the only solution?
I’ve had way too much time to myself the past couple of weeks.
And i’m really wishing that I had thought about this when I should have last time.

Abortion, is it our choice?

What if i told you that right now someone is choosing if you are going to live or die? What if I told you that this choice wasn’t based on what you could or couldn’t do, what you’ve done in the past, or what you could do in the future? And what if I told you, you could do nothing about it? Thousands of children are right now in that very situation. Someone is choosing, without even knowing them, whether they are going to live or die.
That someone is their mother. And that choice, is abortion.
Every day. 115000 children are dying through abortion. A hundred and fifteen thousand. That means that 500 children would die every hour. All those lives, gone. All that potential, gone. And all that hope and future, gone.
Now I know some of you may be thinking, now it’s not really killing. After all, a fetus isn’t really a child, right? Why do we think that just because a fetus can’t talk or do what we do, it isn’t a human being yet? The word fetus, comes from the Latin word, meaning young one or young child. Some babies are born only after 5 months. Is this baby not human? We would never say that, yet abortions are performed on 5 month old fetuses all the time.
Or do we only call them humans, only if they are wanted?
Some people might say that since abortions are legal now, it doesn’t matter, it’s not our business. But if an action is unjust, it needs to be illegal. And it has to be our business. This particular law has a huge impact on our society.
I know some people say that the mother has the right to abort. After all, her life is dramatically impacted by having a baby. But i’m asking you to think of the child’s rights that were never given to it. No matter what rights the mother has, it doesn’t mean we should overlook the rights of the fetus. Talking about the mother’s choice. The mother would have had the choice to not have unprotected sex in the first place. We must remember that with our rights and choices, comes responsibilities. And we can’t take someone else’s rights away to avoid our responsibilities.
And who’s to say that abortion is the easy way out? I don’t think people understand the affects of an abortion on a woman. I don’t have the space to list down all the negative after affects, but here are a few examples of the physical effects. 17% of women face complications in their subsequent pregnancies. Some may not even be able to give birth at all. There are also greater risks in developing breast cancer after having an abortion.
But perhaps the worst affects are the emotional ones. Women who have had an abortion tend to have more mood disorders, substantial enough to provoke them to harm themselves. In addition, these women are 5 times more likely to have problems with drug and alcohol abuse.
Abortion leaves a woman feeling lost and uncertain about their future. Almost 1/3 of all women that have had an abortion are dissatisfied with their decision. It is certainly not the cure that people think it is.
“Even though you can’t see them or hear them at all.
A person’s a person. No matter how small.”
Horton, from Horton Hears a Who!

I had an abortion at the age of 18 and it was the worst thing I ever did. I would never recommend it to anyone, because it always comes back to haunt you.

silent nights

Maybe surrounded by, a million people I still feel all alone..

I just wanna go home, oh I miss you, you know…
I’d be bringing you both back home by today if everything had gone well.
I’d have the room painted purple. A lil pink here, a lil blue there.
It’d look amazing, coz I know how much effort I would have put into it.
It’d be even more so coz I’d have the both of you there.
Exactly where I would have imagined.
But the day’s come and it’ll pass. Just like every other day.
The both of you aren’t here.
Let me go home….I’m just too far….from where you are…
I wanna come home…

I spoke to you today

I hope you know I spoke to you today. Christmas is in 3 weeks. You should be turning 2 soon. And the little ones would be on the way.
I hate this time of the year. I hate everything that reminds me of you. I can’t stand knowing that you could have been around the entire time. Running about. Giggling. Calling me mummy. They don’t know how much it hurts. They don’t see how much I cry for you. They don’t even ask.
It’s so hard to talk about you. It’s hard just thinking those thoughts.
I hope you know how much I miss you. And how much regret I feel. I wish I could show you how much I love you. And give you the world like I should have. I feel bad all the time.
And I’m really sorry I don’t have a tree to leave your Christmas present under this year. But I promise I’ll put it in the box with your present from last year. And we’ll open it together someday.
I’m sorry I didn’t keep you.
I will always love you. So much.

Jayden Crooker / Courtney Jean

Wow…… it really doesn’t seem that long ago but it really has been a while.
It was some hard times we went through with all that happened.
To look back and see where we were then…… We had a good share of ups and downs and I think where we are now is good……. and I cant wait to see where we’ll be in the near future.

Love You Baby and Happy 2 Years? =)